If you weren’t a writer what would you do?

People have asked me….”If you weren’t a writer, what would you do?”

Excellent question!

I love the idea of being a party planner if it didn’t involve so much weekend work. I want to enjoy my family on the weekend not constantly be away working parties for other families.

Other then that I don’t know, probably something in episodic television. I was an actor for several years and started off studying cinematography in school but sucked at it. I could frame an amazing shot but I couldn’t darn well light or film it properly.

Maybe I’d end up at a non-profit helping children. I could see that.

Or even a personal gift shopper. I love bargain hunting and wrapping presents.

But ultimately writing is probably the best fit. It’s a job, hobby and therapy all in one.

Fall Update Q & A

Time for a little Q & A….

What are you working on?

More like what I am not working on. I’m the type of writer who always has five or six different things going on at once. I’ve just started a mystery novel loosely based on true events involving the “most haunted hotel in America.” I’m outlining several series ranging from childrens to young adult to even an adult cozy mystery novella collection. I am in various stages of development/writing/rewriting with the episodes for the childrens television series “Max and Wrigley.” I’m throwing around some development ideas for another kids’ series even, based on a feature I wrote and book series I plan on penning soon as well.

Let’s just say my mind never stops working. Now it’s simply a matter of getting it all done. Ha, ha.

What inspires you?

A little bit of everything; from things around me, what if scenarios, experiences and of course reading. I love getting carried away in a story. Even if the book isn’t the best I still want to finish it to see where it ends. I like the excitement of going on a ride with the characters during their adventures and always find myself emotionally involved in their journey.

Most embarrassing moment?

We’ll get back to that one later. It might appear in a book!

Random Thought

Here’s a random thought….I would say “random thought of the day” but since I don’t post daily we’ll just call this new series…”Random Thought.”

I wonder if people who work in casinos or Vegas are ever still fazed by the flash or glitz and glam of it all.

I used to love gambling and the energy of the places but these days I find myself only noticing the grimy layer of dirt and filth it all carries with it. The destructive and ugly side shines through. My period of “enjoyment” is increasingly shorter as I find more and more I’d rather not waste my money on these amusements as freely as I once did.

I must be getting too serious…or too old. Ha, ha.

It’s finally here….”A Life”

A Life

It’s live!

A Life is now available for download as an ebook on Amazon.

The tale of a high school freshman and her journey through illness as she begins to discover what it means to live.

What constitutes “a life?” Freshman Mallory is just entering the exciting world of high school when she is forced to answer this question following a life threatening diagnosis. When life flips upside down what do you do? Who do you trust? Does one attempt to glue the pieces back together even though the picture will always be broken or continue on and salvage what is left? Ultimately, only she can decide what makes up “A Life.”

If you read it let me know what you think!

Do people change?

Do people change? It’s an age old topic; one members of every generation have contemplated and continue to consider. Recently I’ve been doing some soul searching, all matters revolving around the concepts of change and forgiveness. See, I’m not one who easily forgives. In fact, the idea of forgive and forget seems ridiculous to me. I believe in history. I believe that you learn from studying history and that is what enable one to avoid making the same mistakes as those in the past. Thus “forgive and forget” doesn’t work for me. I do forgive, but it comes difficultly. I’m made the error of forgiving quickly before only to be smacked down harder by the dastardly deeds of the person who had wronged me and hitting the ground the second time is no easier than the first, in fact it stings more. Thus, forgiveness takes a long time and even then…

Change…it’s a powerful word. One filled with infinite possibilities for incredible things and infinite opportunities for failure. I’d like to tell you about some people I’ve been watching lately for change. In this quest of soul searching I’ve found this is where I need to focus some more energy, deciding who should and shouldn’t be a part of my life or how large of a part I allow them to be. It’s much harder than it sounds. It means being brutally honest with yourself about who the cancers are in your life, those people who bring you down and use you.

Three of these people I’ve known my whole life. Person #1 has done a lot of soul searching of their own. They have worked to make positive changes and I am grateful for that but in the hectic schedule of my life I haven’t made the time I should. Or maybe it’s just because I became tired of being disappointed and broken-hearted that my heart doesn’t open as large to this person as it once did. I have hope but it’s hard. This person has changed and I appreciate that change, I’m just not sure the change is permanent and even if it I don’t know that it will ever be the same as I once felt.

Person #2 is quite similar in my relationship however their elements of change I’m not sure about. There’s been a great distance there for years now and I don’t know how much of a change has occurred. I’m afraid there is a big façade making things look rosy when really the same feelings and motivations lie under the surface meaning they will react the same as they once did. It could be volatile. I’m reaching out with feelers and we’ll see how it goes. Time will tell like all things.

Person #3 became distant for odd reasons, a sense of relationship loyalties really. It’s been nice to interact with them lately and I do see a big change there. A maturity which has taken life experience to develop. It’s refreshing to be around them and recall the past. I feel a part of me I’d forgotten for a while and would love to reconnect with. We’ll see how it goes. Small changes are a good, it’s one step at a time.

My relationship with Person #4 has been a rocky road. In the beginning I was very open-minded. In fact I defended the person against the person I love most. I didn’t see the other side until a little later and then well things went downhill. After much time I tried to reach out again, be generous and kind, thoughtful in all ways. That backfired. The bullets shot were even more damaging and I retreated to my cave to heal once more. Recently I thought we were on a good road. Things had been more cordial and even dare I say it, nice. We’d been friendly. I thought they had changed. Then the ugliness reared its head again with eye rolls, rude remarks and a service me attitude. The only kind things out of this person’s mouth were in an obvious attempt to obtain free goods and services from me. I am nothing more than a resource to be consumed and thrown away once depleted. Well, I am now depleted. There has been no change there. I was a fool to think it was possible.

Person #5 is the trickiest. I never thought there was an issue for years. I was blinded and played like a fool. Well blind I am no more. There is no hope for change here. Honestly. None. There may be moments which are more pleasant, things that make you say “hey look they gave a damn” but then there is the other side, a reminder of what we are not and will never be regardless of what we do or how hard we try. It is engraved in stone. This person will not change and because it of I am forced to make the decision; do I lower myself to the same ridiculous behavior and questionable moral status or do I continue on living the way I do and ignore them when the childish things start to avoid conflict while also never volunteering to help because doing so inevitably leads to abuse and a serious lack of appreciation? Easy choice.

Change is an important part of life as things are in constant motion and evolution. I’ll continue studying these people and their changes as well as my own. I’m not quick to forgive but I do offer second chances, and third and fourth…what a dummy.

Have a wonderful day everyone. May all the changes in your life be positive.